Been in kind of a funk lately that seems more like the twilight zone than anything else (or what I imagine the twilight zone would be like, hehe). This or that going on and yet I feel like I'm simply orbiting round and round with no place to land...grrr. At least some things have been established to make the near future look a lot brighter. Namely my upcoming trip back HOME to Ontario in five days' time.

The thought of seeing all my favourite people and places again, however, brief, truly refreshes the soul. In some ways, I'm a bit hesitant because I know things and people will have changed...the joys of being nomadic, eh? But in so many other ways, it's a welcome change from the endless days of monotony I've been experiencing here in Texas. I will miss my friends that I've connected with here dearly...but I know deep down that my being simply cannot exist here much longer before I succumb to the surroundings. Definitely NOT what I was destined for!!!

In some ways, I suppose the entire nation has slowed down to match my internal musings of late with the death of former President Reagen. His state funeral was aired across the country today wherever I went and struck a chord deep down. His death has affected so many across the world for many, many reasons, I feel. It's like a passing of an era and significant age and not just of a great leader. Incredible for someone to be able to embody so much. That is what life is all about while we still have the chance! To be able to leave such impact on the rest who remain behind to continue trekking on. I want my life to be used in that way...every so badly. Another reason why I know Houston is not my final destination.

But where to next? Only faith can answer that for me as I keep putting one put in front of the other and move on. Hopefully my time back in my homeland will reveal some new and extraordinary path. I'm learning to find the extraordinary in the seemingly ordinary, however. Just the change of scenery in itself will be quite welcomed. And to be able to hold and laugh with my many other loved ones again. The intermingling of story and flesh as Sam Keen once put it.

I am ready to fly...and to chase my dreams now that the internal stuff is slowly sorting itself out. Adventure beckons...I will be freeeeeeee!!!